IT IS HIS LOSS and NEVER YOURS. (For Girls)

He left you. He let you go. Your world devastated. You are crying like mad. Broken heart. Lies. But it's never the end.

Love is quite risky and chancy in its own way. You really don’t know when and how is its ups and downs. Today, you two are so in love with eachother and by tomorrow YOU and HIM are total strangers. But if the ULTIMATE DOWN disembarks – DO NOT PLAY the LOSER. BE STRONG.

You may hold on so tight with your relationship. You get so attached with your term with him that you need awful lot of time to move on after breakup. But think about this:

THE MORE YOU MAKE IT STAY, THE MORE PAIN PERSISTS.

You may want to go on and do everything to have him back but he never let you. Remember this:

ONCE A TRASH HAS BEEN THROWN, IT IS CONSIDERED AS A TRASH.

You may ruin your life because you have believed that he WAS your life. Remember this:

YOU WILL BE OKAY AT THE END. IF YOU ARE STILL NOT, THEN IT IS NOT YET THE END. THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN WASTING IT FOR STUPIDITY.

You may seek revenge for he fooled and cheat on you by ruining his life with his new girlfriend. Remember this:

GALATIANS 6:7 "DO NOT BE DECEIVED, GOD IS MOCKED; FOR WHATEVER A MAN SOWS, THIS HE WILL ALSO REAPS..." IF YOU PLAN REVENGE IN YOUR LIFE, REVENGE WILL ALSO COME TO YOU.  LET GOD DOES IT FOR YOU... JUST MOVE ON FORGIVE AND GOD WILL FORGIVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT ARE THE CIRCUMSTANCES. STAY HAPPY WITH YOUR OWN LIFE. AND IF SOMEDAY HE GOT WHAT HE TRULY DESERVES, THEN HE SEES YOU HAPPIER WITHOUT HIM IN YOUR LIFE. BELIEVE ME, IT IS THE MOST PAINFUL THING HE WOULD EVER FEEL. TADA!!! REVENGE AT ITS SWEETEST. SIMPLE BUT DANGEROUS.

It is just the LIFE with him that ends and never your LIFE. Believe that it is NEVER your loss. You did your part. You have loved him but it is not enough for him. It is HIS LOSS. Once a LOSER, always a LOSER.

You are beautiful. Live it. Love it. Embrace it. Tomorrow is another day and a fresh start to LOVE again.

STAND UP, GIRL! He will never have someone like you EVER AGAIN.

When David turns Goliath...

Mistakes are throbbing. But they are the only way to find out who you really are…

As the saying goes, “NOBODY IS PERFECT”. For me, this saying is overused but candid. Everybody and anybody commend mistakes. Only God Jesus is perfect.

In my own life comprehension, MISTAKE has two characteristics -- SMALL mistakes and BIG mistakes.

SMALL MISTAKES are those that have a minor impact in our lives. It is like using wrong type of conditioner in our hair. It may cause HAIR FRIZZ but you could fix it with a leave-on hair conditioner. It has alternatives and could be easily and immediately corrected. But sometimes, or maybe OFTEN TIMES, BIG THINGS always come from SMALL THINGS. So, we should stop doing it because it could direct the way to BIG MISTAKES. And what’s worse is that you’ll end up actually living it.

 

BIG MISTAKES are those I prefer to be called LIFE CHANGING MISTAKES. This kind of mistake is very much painful and hard to deal with. But, nonetheless, it must be accepted and must be taken consequence of. But sometimes, you have to make BIG MISTAKES in your life just to figure out how to make things RIGHT.

At the end, it is our DECISION why we did such factor – whether it is SMALL or BIG. But we discover a lot from it and we could contemplate and say that IT IS CHARGE TO EXPERIENCE. These are one of the explanations of the HOW, WHO, WHAT AND WHY of our existing identity.

LESSONS LEARNED as they say. Every move and step we create is definitely our CHOICE, regardless of the guidance and advices from the people around us. YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE. No one knows you better than you do. TAKE NOTE OF THAT.

To wrap things up: Just a little thought. “You will always see what’s wrong when you are right. But you will NEVER know which is right when you are happy doing wrong.”

My Heart is Yours... Forever...

Forever is just a word. But for us, it is a battle against impediments and barriers. Everything is turning out right now. We are not fortune tellers but we foresee what is ahead of us. We are both in this so-called BATTLE of Love and Bliss. It is not about how we would not let go… but how we HOLD ON.

We’ve been wounded by shattered promises and illusory lies. We know how it feels to be heart-wrecked. Oh, we certainly know it. This song is for him. This heart is for him. We are inevitable… we are unstoppable. My heart is his and his heart is mine… FOREVER

MY HEART – PARAMORE



I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone


Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you

We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long

Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you

We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours



This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)



This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours

(Please don't go, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

I love you so much FREDERICK :) thanks for saving my broken heart.

you are my hero. =)

FORMER LOVE: it is never my loss. it is YOURS =)

IGNORANCE should be your BEST ENEMY

“To accomplish great things, we must not only act but also dream, not only plan but also believe…”

Life is a frenziedly route. Everyday of our lives we learn a lot of peculiar things. We learn from it and we also learn TO it.

This world is more competitive now than how it was years ago. Somehow, technology and drastic changes of almost-every-thing has something to do with it. We might be having paybacks from such innovations and inventions. Mostly, the more affected stage of life is US --the TEENAGERS. Change is good if it is for the BETTER. But if it is for WORSE... Friends, that is a different story. Think about Newton’s 3rd law of motion that states; “For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.”

Teenager life is the most crucial stage by far in these times. Mostly, all the world’s minor or even major problems are concern with us. Why is this so? The reason may be that we are too adventurous and inquisitive about countless objects. We plan, act and envision almost about the whole lot of things. And this oftentimes points us to two (2) opposite ways – the RIGHT way and the WRONG way.

We are about to attain the adult age. In this age, we are going to expand our consciousness regarding our future and career life. We should know by now that our dependency towards our parents or elders is not permanent. This world does not show any assurance of better living anymore. WE ARE what we make it. WE ARE what we want it to be.

One time, I heard this old woman, sitting next to me at the train, talking to her other friend (I know... Listening to other's conversation is a bad thing but i can't help it. I can hear her talking!), “You know, in our time, the youth used be our hope… but today? I even wish my little grandchildren won’t grow up anymore. I’d rather see them as stubborn little kids who just want to play all day than to be insensitive and happy-go-lucky teenagers. I can foresee how awful the future would be if the teenagers keep on doing meaningless stuffs.” This statement really banged my sanity. It made me reflect deeper. SHE IS DEFINITELY RIGHT. SHE DEFINITELY STATES A WORTHY POINT OF VIEW. We are starting to let them overlook about their belief that YOUTH IS THE HOPE OF OUR NATION.

Uh-oh…It seems like we set off to the wrong direction my friends. So, kids are better than US now? Is this what we want them to believe now? Do you really want this? Or we are just too careless to be selfish.

Let’s activate our new adventure in the GOOD way now fellas. Think about it. Don’t get your colorful and vigorous life stuck in the wrong road. If we launched the right thing, we will end up being right. If we set up the wrong thing, definitely you’ll end up being wrong, unless, you try to make it right at the end. What you are right now is absolutely your CHOICE.

We don’t know the ending of our every story. But we should believe and have stronger faith that we could do better and we could be more useful. But it is all up to us now…

IT IS ALL UP TO US. NOW CHOOSE.

LEARN and YEARN (A Love Advice)

          The GREATEST lesson you’ll ever learn in life is to never invest deep feelings for someone.

Never hope that they’ll love you the way you want them to.

       
           Never expect that those sweet gestures and sweet words are true because eventually everything becomes a PAST.

Sooner or later, they will drop you off and will leave you NOTHING.

So train yourself to let go of the things you fear to lose…

So that when they’re GONE…

….you won’t feel used and pathetic all along….

--from a hearbreak survivor

LOOK UP. TAKE CARE OF YOUR

HEART... :)

When the HEART speaks...

Experience is a great teacher. When it comes to LOVE, I’ve been through a lot. Happiness, satisfaction, pain, heartbreaks, sorrows, tears… Name them all… and because of these things… I come up with these basic rules to have longer and stronger relationship with your lover.

• Never let anyone fall in love with you if it’s just for a rebound.
• Don’t make someone love you if you still love you ‘ex’ very much.
• Never use anyone for you to move on... I mean ANYONE.
• Never make decision if you’re too angry or too happy.
• Never take anyone for granted.
• Never LIE or CHEAT
• Set things straight and clear once and for all
• Believe and have no doubts
• Make sure you’ve totally moved on before you say so!
• Above all, trust God Jesus and put Him first and everything you do.

REMEMBER:

 -- Not everyone is able to forgive when they have been hurt so much.

Confession of a BROKEN HEARTED mean GIRL =)

Someday, after he broke my HEART... I won't be sad anymore... I'll just hug him and say...

"If you will miss me... Just watch over the stars..."

....and if he asks me WHY?

I'll just simple reply:

"Because after you break my HEART, i'll be just a star for you...

YOU CAN ALWAYS STARE AT ME...

...BUT YOU CAN NEVER GET ME ONCE MORE..."

Oh Star... Fall Down On Me...

     Dark Sky...  My Star... And the brand new ME....

   
     I never had this sentiment before... This solitude doesn't make me feel so bad at all. I felt a bizarre feeling of release. This is what I wished for before… Finally, the star made my wish come true…

   
     Sometimes, we all need to be alone for the moment. We need to reflect and envision of what we yearn for in many years from now. Everything has its own purpose but sometimes we never take a moment to comprehend.

   
     Wishing upon a star is not a wrong thing. It never was. It even helps every individual to have this certainty that one day his/her wishes would come true. It is like we are back to being kids again. Pain is just temporary… It would remind us that we are genuine by heart and mind. For the fact that we are defenseless to pain and sorrows, it only mean one thing – we did something right and true by heart, it is just that for that something we are NOTHING.

    
     This is the good time to spare some time to ponder and weigh everything. Feel. Think. And then look up again. Think of that wish you had and hold on tight to it.

     
     You may ask, “Why is this girl talking about pain and moving on?” “Does she even know what is the meaning of pain?” well, I am only 18 years old but in my young age, I know exactly what pain is and how it feels. I’ve been there a million times, both physically and emotionally, but I held on. I am still standing here and living normally because I BELIEVE that at the end, I am going to get through such impair and this will make me stronger and better.

    
     Now, as I look at that bright star at the clear dark sky… I felt it… right in my heart that I should be strong no matter what happens… No matter how great the pain is… All you need is to be believe that you deserve something better… Far better than what you’ve thought was already perfect for you… Learn these 2 things;

    
     Just let go if it really hurts…

     
     And just move on because you are STRONG and BEAUTIFUL.

   
     And I have just realized that the star I’ve been talking to is just the likeness of GOD…

EGO by ME :)

Yes. It is ME. I am so bored. Hehe. ENJOY!

CRAZIER by Taylor Swift (Hannah Montana)

I LOVE THIS SONG. THIS IS MY SONG FOR FRED :)

LYRICS:

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything


You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier


I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe


You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier


Ohhhh


Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh


You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm fallin and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier Crazier...



--come on.. sing along... feel the spirit of being inlove after a HEARTBREAK :)

PRESS START to get to the next LEVEL

          STOP RIGHT THERE IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO BRING ME DOWN.

I didn't know I will be very happy like this. No more tears, sorrows and pain. (Well, maybe they are still there but not that MAJOR though). I am catching things up now and I moved on totally. I have my new life now.

My battle gears are ready for the next battle. Experience is my teacher, wisdom is my sword, heart is my helmet and God JESUS is my tourniquet/SHIELD. 

I am the new Caera/Ryx now... BETTER. FASTER. STRONGER. TO THOSE WHO WANT TO BE A PART OF IT WELCOME. TO THOSE WHO DOESN'T WANT TO BE PART OF IT ITS OKAY. Nothing and no one could ever  bring me down again. Live it. Love it. FACE it. This time, its my turn to be HAPPY.

This Time, NO MORE TEARS (My heart Savior)

I am still here... For a reason, for a change...

Now I know that God has His reasons why a sudden heartbreak happened in my life. He just reminded me that the person who broke my heart was not perfect for me... There's someone coming to heal it... As they said, "For a girl with a broken heart, there's always a boy with a band aid."

He is my life now... My reason of my existence. I thought I would never love again after a 2-year relationship has ended. He is the answer to my life-long prayers that Ive thought had already answered. Now I know, Patrick is just the guide for me to get in "his" path. The name is Fred and this name will really,really stay in my heart forever.

This time, NO GIVING UPS, this time NO LETTING GO. These words have been said before but they just remained mere broken promises that were given by a former love. Fred's heart is where I TRULY belong now... And I BELIEVE. this time, I HAVE FOUND THE REAL HAPPINESS THAT'S GOING TO LAST FOREVER... :)

IF I WERE....

If I were a day of the week I would be: SATURDAY
     *Because its the weekend!!! Everybody loves weekend!

If I were a time of day I would be: 3:00pm
     *Because I dont know really... Maybe because I eat a lot by 3pm -- its a snack time!

If I were a planet I would be: VENUS
     *Because VENUS is the representation of LOVE, BEAUTY :)

If I were a sea animal I would be: DOLPHIN
     *Because DOLPHINS are my favorite animal... I trust Dolphins!:)

If I were a direction I would be: EAST
     *Because sunrise starts at the EAST, new day...new life... new beginning...

If I were a piece of furniture I would be: SOFA
     *Because SOFA is soft... Fred said that my skin and face are soft..

If I were a sin I would be: GLUTTONY(LAUGHS)
     *Because I JUST LOVE TO EAT A LOT, I mean A LOT :)

 If I were a historical figure I would be: AMELIA EARHEART
     *Because like her, I  AM VERY MUCH ADVENTUROUS

If I were a liquid I would be: WATER

     *Because I can't  think of anything right now... My brain's dead. :))

If I were a stone, I would be: DIAMOND
     *Because DIAMOND are forever. Oh how I love forever! :))

If I were a tree, I would be: BAMBOO TREE
     *Bamboo Tree is a very strong tree, I am strong. Therefore I am a BAMBOO TREE! What?

If I were a bird, I would be: AN EAGLE
     *Because Eagle represents toughness. :)

If I were a tool, I would be: A SCREWDRIVER
    *Because my dad always use screwdriver, Its useful... I want to be useful  meaning being worthy:)

If I were a flower/plant, I would be: TULIPS
    *Because it is my mom's favorite... I want to be her favorite person always..

If I were a kind of weather, I would be: CLOUDY
   *Because CLOUDY weather makes me cool down at times when I need it. It makes you feel more peace and serenity.

If I were a mythical creature, I would be: A GOOD FAIRY
   *Because GOOD FAIRIES are very gentle creatures.Kids love them a lot.

If I were a musical instrument, I would be: GUITAR
   *Because GUITAR is my image of music. I love to play GUITAR :)

If I were an animal, I would be: A TIGER
   *Because I like to say, "RAWR"!

:)

The Hoax (My last song for HIM)

My yesterday is gone
And you’re now a part of it
Gotta get things in my own way
And no you’ll never make it

Now you want me back
Starting all over again
But boy don’t you hear me?
My love for you is dead

I’m beginning to forget
The beauty of your promises
You’ll never have my love again
So go, live lies and die with you excuses

Somehow I’ve realized
That it wasn’t my loss
Your sorry’s made me feel
That this is how it goes

Now don’t try to tell me
That I’ll come back to you
Boy the road is closed
And still my love for you is dead

I’m done crying all your worth
Feelings keep slipping away
So go on just keep your stars
‘coz I’ve finally found my own

--He is just part of my yesterday now... We have been together for 2years and a half... This would be my last post/song for him and us... Yesterday's gone and so is HE :) Goodbye, Patrick.

Say HELLO to GOODBYE (THE NEW SUNRISE)

I can breathe easily now… Something’s telling me that a painful sunset is turning into a fresh and brand new sunrise… Because that’s all I need for the meantime… That’s all…

“I am sorry, but I can’t love you anymore…” these were his last words before he left… I never thought that i’d come to this day that I am going to hate the person I truly cared for… The same person that made me smile… The same person whom I thought who would be there until the end of time… But I was deceived by his brilliant lies and beautiful promises. And now, it made me realize how vulnerable I am for those kind of things.

I did everything, anything just to make myself believe that I’d still want him back for the 4th time. Is that love? Or I am just sooo afraid to be alone? Maybe both, maybe one of it or maybe nothing at all… He is now part of my yesterday and that yesterday is sooo gone now… The greatest lesson I have learned is to never invest deep feelings to someone you just think is sooo perfect (NOBODY is perfect) for you. So, if its time for you to let go, it wasn't hard for you to lose your grip.

The person is gone now along with the importance I gave him…

IT IS OVER and I AM GOING TO BE OKAY :)